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Thank you! I'm really glad you enjoyed the ride. 😊

Your question is a bit vague, but I'll do my best...if you're not familiar with trans physiology in general, I'll provide a short overview here.

Lu Guang in this story is a transgender man, which means he was assigned female at birth and is now living authentically as a man. He is socially transitioned, which means he interacts with the outside world as a man, using male pronouns, etc. Many (but not all) transgender people experience gender dysphoria, and pursue gender affirming medical care to treat it. In this fic, Lu Guang is receiving that care. He is on T (testosterone), which can lead to a variety of physiological changes (as described in the link). He has not had bottom surgery, but he has had top surgery, using the keyhole method. Considering that he has had surgeries, and considering some of the other physical descriptions that I give throughout the fic, it is implied that he has been transitioning for several years by this point and that he likely started in his teenage years.

There are way more gender affirming treatments than the ones listed above, but these are the ones relevant to this specific fic.

Not all transgender people receive all of, or even any of, the gender affirming treatments available. Some choose not to for a variety of reasons, or start and stop as their own personal circumstances change. A trans person is still trans, even if they are not receiving or pursuing gender affirming care.

Many trans people refer to their genitalia with terminology appropriate to their gender. So for example, though Lu Guang has not had bottom surgery, he refers to it as a dick, as is reflected in this story. Others may call it a t-dick. Others may call it a clit. What each person calls it is of course a matter of personal choice, and there is no wrong answer. Trans women have similar terminology considerations for their own genitalia. In general, the most polite way for another person to refer to a trans person's junk is to not refer to it at all, just like one would exercise discretion for a cis person.

Dysphoria is a very, very serious issue. I hope that the distress it can cause is well illustrated in the story I wrote, but gender dysphoria can lead to increased depression and anxiety, increased social withdrawal and isolation, and markedly increased risk (up to 73% higher) of suicide (Source). This is why access to gender affirming/transitioning care is so crucial, and why I think it's so important to show trans people living authentically in fiction.

I happen to be a healthcare professional with a focus on transgender health, as well as a trans person. While I am comfortable explaining these things to you, I would also like to gently express that asking these questions of a trans person you don't know well is usually considered rude. It is more polite to look it up yourself. If you have more curiosity about the trans body, besides the websites I linked in this comment, here are a few more sources:

Scarleteen is an absolutely incredible resource on all aspects of gender and sexual health. It is aimed at teens, but the information is comprehensive, accurate, and very clearly explained - good for everyone. In particular, I think you might find their Trans Summer School series illuminating.

That's Gender Dysphoria, FYI

PFLAG

SextEd

I've mostly been focusing on transmasculine (transmasc) people because that's topical to this fic, but here's a good article on having sex after bottom surgery as a trans woman

I hope this was able to make things clearer for you. Thank you again for reading my fic and leaving a comment. I really appreciate it. ♥

cxs in this fic is a cis man who spends a significant period inhabiting a woman's body. During that period, cxs is intermittently referred to with female pronouns in a way that is attempting to emulate how cxs's targets will flip between the original person's voice and cxs's voice in the show.

lg is experiencing weapons-grade horny pining throughout this fic, and there is one scene where he masturbates to thoughts of cxs in a clandestine fashion. lg is transgender ftm in this fic, and is referred to with male terminology for his junk.

cxs also has sex in a woman's body, and during that sequence he is referred to with both male and female pronouns, and with female genitalia terminology. He experiences body dysphoria during this sexual encounter, because he is a man. The pronouns used for cxs are intentionally confusing in this section, and may come across as misgendering, done as an attempt to illustrate the gender dysphoria he is experiencing. It's clear that cxs is having an awful time, and while has repeatedly and explicitly consented to what is happening, it's still dubious consent at best. This scene has some poly and voyeuristic overtones, and one person in the scene (the original NPC character) does not have knowledge of—and therefore cannot consent—to the full implications of, or the partners in, the sex he is having.

The dysphoria leads cxs to have multiple panic attacks, both during and after the dive. All of them are dissociative, and one panic attack additionally involves self-harm (scratching). lg helps him manage it both in the dive and afterward with various management techniques. Some of them don't work, and some of them are more aggressive than others. (I actually don't recommend doing the most dramatic panic-breaking method Lu Guang uses in this fic unless you know what you're doing; it can go wrong unless applied perfectly.)

When cxs is in his own body in a later sex scene, he is referred to with male pronouns and male genitalia terminology. However, there is transference from his experiences in a female body that make his gender feel more fluid than it usually does, and he experiences some gender confusion and body/gender dysphoria during this scene as well.

There is a happy ending.

Please take care, and leave a comment if you need any further information before reading.

I've been working on this mixtape since 2018

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From the webcomic johnny wander

2 large chicken breasts, cubed (or 2, maybe 3? blocks of tofu)
1 15oz can of pumpkin puree
1 15oz can of reduced sodium chicken broth. For my purposes I will probably take 1tbsp miso + water
1 8ox box of S&B Golden Curry
4 carrots, peeled and diced
3 big potatoes, peeled and diced
1 large onion, diced
2 garlic cloves, diced
1 tbsp ginger (grated fresh; 1/4 tsp ground ginger)
cream or milk to taste

Welcome vegetable additions: tomato, apple, sweet potato, peas, squash, eggplant, pepper, celery.

1. Add all ingredients, except milk, to slow cooker.
2. Just barely cover all ingredients with water.
3. Cover and cook - high 4h, low 8h. Stir every few hours.
4. Add cream to taste. Serve.

Freezes well. Pair with rice.

inspired by locals (girls like us) by underscores. akito and toya cameos.

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Makes 1 serving

Ingredients:
1 1/2 cups milk (oat, almond, dairy, etc. - your choice)
1 1/2 teaspoon maple syrup
3/4 teaspoon vanilla extract (optional - I omit it)
1/2 teaspoon ground turmeric
1/2 teaspoon ground ginger
1 big pinch cinnamon, to taste
1 pinch freshly ground black pepper (not optional - it boosts the benefits of the turmeric)

Mix all ingredients together in a mug. Warm in the microwave in one-minute intervals, mixing in between. When warmed up to your liking, enjoy!

CGR crunch time = mixtape time

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Lasagna:
12 noodles of lasagna
2 24 oz jar of Vodka sauce
4 cups mozz cheese
Parm cheese
1ib sausage
1ib turkey beef
1 15oz container of ricotta
Parsley
Salt
Pepper
Italian seasoning
1medium onion
3 cloves garlic
1egf
Combine ricotta egg and 3 tablespoons of parsley garlic Italian seasoning and red pepper flakes cover with towel set aside in fridge for 1 hour prior to cooking with towel on top to absorb moisture
Cook lasagna noodles for ten minutes until aldente with olive oil and salt set aside
Add onion to skillet Cook until translucent add beef and sausage until cooked through then add garlic
Drain meat
Add meat to sauce
Grease 13x9 pan
Add meat sauce as first layer
Then 4 lasagna noodles
Then 1/3 of ricotta mix
Then 1 cup mozzarella cheese
Then 2 tablespoons of parm cheese
Repeat two more times
Add remaining sauce and cheese on top layer
Bake at 375 for 25 minutes covered and then Uncovered for 15-20 mins and let cool for 20-25 mins

New year new music

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